Empty, just empty

Due to several blunders on my part and others, now even the PGCE is in danger of not happenning-and with it the idea of any employment. I hope to fix this on Monday, but I am wondering how my life fell apart in five months. From beaming graduate to stuck-in the mud fool. I feel so empty, so homeless, so hopeless. Am I as smart as I think? Am I as able to deal with this?

I am so alone, so lost ,so empty. I don't understand how or why this has happenned. I feel sorryt for everyone who has believed in me, trusted me. I have gone and proven them all. I'm just a loser.